saying goodbye


Tomorrow, we sell the house that we lived in for the past twenty-five years. It’s the house where we raised our children. It’s the place where we celebrated 25 Christmas mornings with wide-eyed wonder after pulling all-nighters putting together kitchen sets and bicycles. It’s where I rocked children with fever through the night, corralled brownie troops with crafts, and tossed a million basketballs into the net to spell HORSE. It’s where music filled the rooms with children’s piano lessons and later, songs from pensive daughters home from college. It’s where we drank wine by candlelight with  chatty neighbors when the electricity went out for a few days after a hurricane, and where we grilled outside and met lifetime best friends with the neighbors that we shared  day-to-day life with. It’s where we lived life and lived life big. And, it was where I experienced the most meaningful part of my life to date.

Selling the house will officially close that chapter in our lives.

I’m not usually sentimental about things like this, but this has me misty-eyed this evening. It’s just a house, but this particular house was the big gift box with a bow that contained all the beautiful memories that became our family treasures.

As I close the door to the old house tomorrow, I’ll say a prayer that the next family will enjoy new joys of their own within those walls. And I will whisper from the depth of my heart an understated thank you for the privilege of having been a family there.

It’s so hard to imagine saying goodbye to this period of our lives, but we are looking forward to the days ahead as we return to the homestead where my grandmother raised her own children,  and we will embrace a simpler life of vegetable gardens and boots with big dogs and hay bales.

But none of us will soon forget the wonder years we experienced at 16007 Stewarts Grove Drive.

Wrestling well – Jacob

Wrestling well before God in Prayer.

Prayer is work. Oh, not the careless “God bless the world and God bless me” prayers which I have often prayed over the years. Not the going-through-the-motions feeling with no real heart exertion type prayers that we all have shot up to heaven many times. No.

I’m talking about the real gut wrenching, sweat pouring, tear flowing moments that absolutely break us into something beautiful before God.  It often isn’t until we are absolutely desperate that God can get our full attention like this. And it’s in those moments where we get to the end of ourselves and avail much blessing. This is where prayer is the hard work, but also where prayer has its work within us, blessing us, breaking us  like Jacob.

According to P.T. Forsyth in The Soul of Prayer, “prayer is an encounter of wills-till one will or the other give way It is not a spiritual exercise merely, but in its maturity it [prayer] is a cause acting on the course of God’s world. It is, indeed, by God’s grace that prayer is a real cause, but such it is.  And of course, there must be in us a faith corresponding to that grace.” With such power access, why would we not spend more of ourselves in this endeavor?

But spiritual matters take much energy. It isn’t in our physical makeup to be focused so long as is often required in attentive prayer. It requires faith on our part and grace on His that we even dare approach Him with our intercessions and heart’s pleadings. Evil wants to attack us constantly and pull us into despair and spiritual defeat. But we must strive to overcome the obstacles to truly wrestle well with God.

We can learn some great tips in how to struggle in prayer from Jacob:

1. Slip away by yourself. Demands on our time, our energy, our attention bombard us daily. It isn’t until we turn off the rest of the world that we can solely focus and get down to the business of prayer.

2. Take care of unconfessed sin. Well, we didn’t learn this from Jacob, but it is worth saying. Get a clean slate up front. Jesus took care of the Penalty of our sin at huge cost to Himself, so we must not ever take this for granted.

3. Keep praying. Don’t get lazy and give up! Have the tenacity of the widow who would not take no for an answer. Wrestle all night if you must and hang tightly to Him.

4. Pray with faith, knowing that He hears and answers every prayer of His children. Jacob was a child of the Promise. He knew his rightful inheritance.–not the one he stole from his brother, Esau, but the rich inheritance of God’s Promise.

That blessing Jacob sought became the most important thing to Jacob, and he got it.The meaning of the name of the river Jabbok where this all took place is “to empty oneself.” Jacob had to get to the end of himself before he could be blessed and used mightily by God. This was happening for years, but that night at the Jabbok River, Jacob wrestled well with God.  And a whole lot happened. His heart changed, he forever walked from then on with a limp, and he was given a new name, Israel because “he wrestled with God and with men and prevailed.” Gen. 32:28

We don’t have to fight or wrestle with God because we will be crippled at best–remember Jacob. But we must wrestle before God with all our heart. And we must be careful not to be lazy and give up.

Let us put up a good, glory-is-at-stake fight and find ourselves empowered with His strength!

Are you wrestling well with God? What lingers this week for you as you read about these patriarchs of the Bible?


Reading through the Bible chronologically with devotions from Come Boldly: Timeless Daily Encouragements on Prayer that pair with the Scripture readings. Genesis 25-42. Come Boldly, wrestling in prayer, pp. 31, 49, 103, 164 243, 250, 272;  and mentions of Isaac, p. 162; Jacob, pp. 81, 103, 162, 175, 253: & Joseph, p. 162.

Come Boldly in 2014 – Three: Abraham

How long, Oh Lord?

“O Lord, how long shall I cry, and thou wilt not hear!” Habakkuk 1:2 KJV

“To develop God-focused or God centered praying, we need to develop the discipline of clinging to God when nothing seems to be happening. Let God know you will not let go of Him”–Come Boldly, p.162

Abraham waited over twenty-five years from the time God first told him about making him the father of many nations. The Word doesn’t directly mention how frustrated he and Sarah must have been in the wait, but somewhere along the way, they devised their own plan with Hagar and Ishmael was born. But he would not be the child of the promise. God had a plan that would be accomplished, and He didn’t need their “help.”

Meanwhile, another decade passes before the angelic visit where Sarah laughs out loud at the preposterous notion of being ninety years old and pregnant. But within the year, Abraham and Sarah would  understand that with God, nothing is impossible.

As I think about Abraham, I remember my own things I am waiting on God for, things that I, frankly, have lost hope for. And Abraham encourages me to renew trust and wait with expectation.

We do not know what God is doing for us in the wait. But we can be confident that He is working out the details, even when we think we’ve been forgotten. When we pray and God appears silent, it hurts. We have a tendency to get discouraged and fall away. But there are some things we can learn from Abraham to help us fare well in the wait.

Put up an altar. Worship him every step of the way. Abraham stopped and set up an altar and worshipped with his family every time he moved camp.

Have faith. Trust in the good God you’ve come to know, and the plan He has for you even if it looks very different from what you see. Faith is “a steady and certain knowledge of the Divine benevolence towards us, which, being founded on the truth of the gratuitous promise in Christ, is both revealed to our minds, and confirmed to our hearts, by the Holy Spirit.” (John Calvin) 

Stay on the right track. Don’t devise your own plan thinking you need to help God along. Wait on His direction, His provision, His strength to see you through the wait, for as long as it takes.

Be obedient. Even when it looks like the very provision God makes for us is about to be destroyed, stick with His plan. He will see it to completion. Abraham believed and it was credited to him as righteousness.

Remember His faithfulness. Instead of reviewing all the ways He has not changed our current situation, recall all the ways He has shown you His Love and faithfulness.

Keep pounding the door of heaven. Cling to Him. Trust in His goodness. Rest in His sovereignty. Even though it’s taking longer than you think it should…Believe on God and it will be counted to you as righteousness.

Are you waiting on something that doesn’t seem to be happening? Do you feel forgotten by God? Would you like to renew your faith that God is working in that situation? Is there something in particular that you would like to pray for together? Leave a comment or your thoughts, and thanks for stopping by today!

Reading through the Bible chronologically with devotions from Come Boldly: Timeless Daily Encouragements on Prayer that pair with the Scripture readings. Job 35-42Gen. 12-24. Come Boldly Pages 77, 179, and mentions of Abraham pp. 62, 63, 162, 253.