be holy as I am holy

Once, for over a year, I wore a piece of blue yarn on my right wrist. Beth Moore’s Believing God study asked us to wear a blue bracelet to remind us to believe God for what He promises. She based the concept on the Scripture where the Israelites were to wear blue tassels in Numbers 15:39 “When you see the tassels, you will remember and obey all the commands of the Lord instead of following your own desires and defiling yourselves, as you are prone to do.”

I remember thinking that for all it represented, it should be far more beautiful than a tattered piece of yarn. (I’ll be honest–I wanted jewelry.) It didn’t take long for it to go through quite a lot. It washed dishes with me, it took showers, it did the work a mother’s hands do for a whole year. It also went through a couple of paraffin dips when I got a manicure, and, interestingly, it preserved it with the wax. It started holding its own shape and became stronger, though it continued to go where I went, and served as a reminder to follow God’s commands and believe Him for His promises. It actually became more beautiful in my eyes for all it had been through with me. But then something happened, and I lost my focus.

Eventually, it became more ordinary than holy, and I took it off. I saved it, but couldn’t remember where I had left it. Many months later, I found it. It seemed so wrong for it to be abandoned on the floor, so I picked it up another time and wore it. I haven’t seen it in quite a while, and think it is in my jewelry box, but don’t really remember taking it off. I thought about what Karen at “A Time for Everything” wrote so beautifully on this Scripture mentioned above and focused on the words, “as we are prone to do.” How quickly we can abandon our God. One day we know the fullness of God, and the next day, we treat it as another ordinary day where we are not even aware of any offense we have committed against Him in our abandonment. Maybe another blue piece of yarn is in order or maybe a renewed heart would be better. The yarn was a symbol, nothing more, but it represented my heart much of the time I wore it, and also in the time I didn’t.

Yesterday, something profound happened in my prayer time. Again, it was just a symbol, but it was fraught with meaning for me. I was kneeling, face to the floor telling God I couldn’t, but He could. I was asking for forgiveness and strength, and more of His mighty Spirit to do this thing called Life better, and my necklace fell right in front of my eyes. On the necklace, I wear a dove in flight, as a symbol of His Spirit inside of me. It was as if He said, I am ever before you and I will give you that strength through my Spirit. It was a symbol, but it was also a reminder. Since then, I have clutched the dove in my fist several times. Lord, don’t let me forget. Don’t allow me to ever see you as more ordinary than holy. Amen.

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8 thoughts on “be holy as I am holy

  1. As I’m listening to “Hosanna”, I’m scanning your posts and saw this one….was touched how as you are praying, face down, your necklace with the dove falls from your neck….how powerful! A God-moment?
    Yes! Mightily! Brought tears to my eyes because we do not take God at His word, we ask, then go on with life, accepting things as they are, not really expecting Him to come through….

    Thank you!

  2. Wow I love the reminder of why I were my blue rubber braclet… I also were a purple and a orange I have not taken them off for over 3 years, and I think of what I went throught to get to were I am, and who has been with me through every step of the way…

    Thank you
    Connie

  3. Annette,
    You have such a beautiful heart and you say the words that I need to hear. I don’t ever want to forget either.

    I am so glad to be blessed with you as a friend!

  4. I’ve been thinking about this post all afternoon since I read it on my little iPod. Since I am going to try to be real I need to admit that during Believing God I wore the blue bracelet that a friend made for me. I took it off because I had to go to a wedding and was embarrassed that it didn’t “go” with my outfit and more importantly I was worried that someone might ask me why I was wearing it. I know I disappointed God in such a big way and today I need to fall facedown to ask forgiveness for that terrible sin. Now, three years later I am Believing God and trusting Him completely with my life. I am so grateful for second chances and now I wear my necklace with a cross proudly. I was reminded of the sin when I read Karen’s post and now reading yours I need to deal with this once and for all. I hope my life glorifies God more today than yesterday

    Thank you for this post!
    Love you,

  5. Dear Annie,

    Thank you so much for sharing from your heart…. it blessed me so much. I often used to think of the phrase ‘what would Jesus do’, but not often have those thoughts come lately, and I needed to be reminded to give our loving Saviour the reverence and love that is due Him, and never forgot how much He first loved me.

    Bless you
    Barbara

  6. Oh, Annette, how beautiful. What you wrote touched my heart and maybe even my soul. My God showed up today in my life and humbled me again. he is so moving in our lives. He is more alive to me than He’s ever been. How I don’t want to loose it….He speaks to us in symbols…He spoke to me thru you. Blessings…

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