I hate to take you into my brain right now—it’s such a cluttered mess. But I’ve been thinking about something and wonder if it’s just me, or if this is an experience such as is common to man. I hate to go out on a limb and ask because it involves the sin of doubt. I was reading in Genesis 18 where Abram was talking to God one day, boldly asking God to have mercy on the people of Sodom.
Abram asks, “”Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not spare the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it? Far be it from you to do such a thing—to kill the righteous with the wicked, treating the righteous and the wicked alike. Far be it from you! Will not the Judge of all the earth do right?”
Abraham works his way down to ten people. “Will not the Judge of all the earth do right? And the Lord responds. For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it.” It seems this would anger the Lord, yet He is patient with Abraham’s questions. He continues to reassure Abraham that He will be fair in His judgment. I still want him to ask one more. “For the sake of one, would not the Judge of all the earth do right?” I know the answer in my head, but somehow I don’t believe in my heart that I alone am worthy of such a loving God. And the obvious answer is: I am most certainly not. But Christ is my righteousness, and He died for us to have this purity before the Throne of God. Can I trust God enough to know that nothing about His character is unfair, and that He never acts in a way that is inconsistent with righteousness and love? I’ve said it here before, but I believe what God says in His Word is true, but I don’t always believe He’d do it for me. I believe in miracles, but my faith short-circuits somewhere between, “God so loved the world…and God so loved Annette,…”
God is my loving God. I have to take God personally and believe His universal Truth is my Truth. I have to have faith that even for one, even for me, God extends extreme Grace.


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